Desperate banging for help out of the womb

 I get emotional, and my babies poundings increase

sometimes, i close my eyes

and dream of being gone. 

i want to be nowhere

 floating in space

back where i belong

I want to drive off the interstate

or walk into traffic

and be gone forever

but then i see my boys curly auburn hair

and his beautiful smile

and hear the laughter bellowing from his belly

and silly giggles

and tears flow from my face

the last thing i could ever do

is let go of my babies

never

i could never let them go

they are the sun to my earth

hope is not lost with them. 

never